Xena's Story Final Part (3)

 Xena on Saturday 1st September 2012 enjoying a long walk around The River Frome.

 

 

 

Xena's Story Final Part (3)

I decided to take her off her tablets. I thought long and hard about the decision. I spoke to the vet who said that she may go at any time from internal bleeding, that she would have a bleed in her brain or her stomach. He did not expect her to live more than two weeks. I knew I would lose her but I wanted her to have two good weeks if I could rather than another miserable few months or years. I looked into homeopathic remedies for dogs and as I had also recently started on a new life path for myself of holistic therapies I decided to learn reiki so that I could treat her.

I put her on Arnica and I treated her everyday with reiki. I brought in an experienced reiki lady who I met whilst learning reiki and she treated her. I took her off wheat and chemicals and only bought natural food for her. I treated her as if every day was her last and boy was she happy! I thought each day about it being her last day. I hated to leave her alone because I was convinced I would come home to find her dead. She had a habit of sleeping upside down with her legs in the air and snoring loudly. I kept waking and if I did not hear her snoring I would panic and call out her name. She used to jump up out of a deep sleep as if to say 'What!! Whats wrong?' I tried to make every day a good day to die. It sounds so morbid but I just wanted her to have a great last day.

As I am sure you are aware by the time scale and the start of the story. She is still around eight years later - yep - eight years. No one told her she was supposed to die from it - we just let her do her thing. After a couple of months I stopped worrying because it seemed like the right decision. She had a few good months and that was ok by me. Then it was a good year, a good couple of years and now it's a good life. Of course, she was spoilt rotten and you can't do a thing with her now! Her favourite hobby is barking and she just loves to do it. Mad as a ship's cat, but then I think she always was.

It is hard to play god, which is what we are to our animals. It is hard to decide to allow an animal to die if that is what is right? Who are we to say? We can only try and listen to what they are saying. Don't try and put words and thoughts into their heads they speak with energy. If you listen carefully and sit with your pet you can feel the energy and you will know the right choice for the animal you love. It is not always right to try and keep them alive just because we will miss them so desperately.

Xena checking the story copy is correct before going to press.

 I sure will miss Xena when she goes, but whenever that is will be fine because she has had a great life. Lucky dog!